Anyway, back to Will. They started me on a pitocin drip and the contractions started. They started getting a little stronger, but I thought, "This isn't that bad. I can handle this." Besides, I was terrified of the epidural needle. The contractions continued growing until I had a really big one and gush!! I was told that what had happened was I had a "high tear" in the sac, meaning it had torn up above the baby's head, so the head was blocking most of the fluid from coming out. The big contraction had finished the tear and now everything was coming out. Well, in our childbirth classes, the nurse had said that labor is less painful with the water cushioning the baby's head against your cervix. The lady did not lie. Things changed quickly. I was no longer at all afraid of the epidural needle. If they had had to shoot me with a gun, I wouldn't have cared. I just wanted relief!
I loved my epidural!! It was wonderful! I could still feel the contractions, but they no longer hurt-- a miracle! Soon after, I made it to 10 cms. I began pushing, and pushed, and pushed, and pushed... Dr. Gerwe mentioned forceps, but I hated the idea of my baby's head being squashed between salad tongs! I pushed, and pushed, and pushed... Finally, it had been nearly 3 hrs. Dr. Gerwe told me at 3 hrs, my options were forceps or a c-section. I agreed to the forceps. They upped my epidural, and told me to give a big push and keep pushing! I did and out came the most beautiful baby I had ever laid eyes on. He was perfect! A couple of marks from the forceps, but perfect. Mommy was not so good. I was told I had a 3rd and 1/2 degree tear. At the time (I'm not sure if he still does), Will had the largest head Dr. Gerwe had ever delivered vaginally. Not a record any woman wants to hold.
They cleaned him up and put him on my chest. There are simply no words for this moment. My heart began to swell so strongly with love that my chest actually ached for a bit. In that moment, I knew that I could never love anything more than this precious child. I would die or kill for him without a second thought. I looked over at my handsome husband and realized that this forever changed our relationship also. By this time we had been married 5 years and loved each other very much, but to bring a life into the world that is half him and half me-- that added a whole new dimension to us.
I love that each of my deliveries is so special. There is nothing like a quadruplet c-section, but there is also nothing like the birth of your first child. Two of the greatest days of my life. Happy Birthday William James!!!
August 8, 2009